Stuck In A Moment

  A sense of finality was found, but closer wasn't.  This led my subconscious to revisit things more than I would have chosen.  Trying to tie up loose ends, my mind continued to process the past to make better sense of things through random thoughts, memories, and dreams.  The conscious mind is a hostage to the subconscious when there is something that it's fixated on.  The only thing I could do was give my mind new problems to solve.  This quieted the voices from the past.

  Without provocation, my mind returned to this unresolved issue in a dream last night.  It started by putting me in a position that has caused conflict, however, there was no conflict to be found.  It took this positive note and followed it with a major leap, regressing things to a more amicable state. 

  At this point in the dream, I because aware that it was a dream.  You know that state where you are still dreaming, yet you can sometimes make choices & wake yourself up at will.  With this new found level of choice, I let the dream continue to play out.  I was questioned if this new amicable state was what I was looking for (more or less) & I responded.  My response was not what my subconscious expected. 

Rant: Internet Simping

  The Internet is a strange place.  Where else can you buy plane tickets, research epilepsy in dogs, & find porn all with the same tool???  The E-co system (see what I did there?) encourages behavior that can be seen as lame in real life.  I'm just trying to figure it all out.  Below are some examples with my opinion of it, let me know what your thoughts are in the comments...or not (reverse psychology).

  
The Mass Complimenter 
  The "You Catch More Flies With Honey" Technique.  This person likes hundreds of pictures and posts daily of people they find attractive.  Chances are, if you go through a pretty girl's photo album on Facebook or Instagram (same difference) you will see the same people like and/or compliment the majority of her pictures.  The real life equivalent to this is complimenting someone about their outfit everyday.  Sure, it would be nice at first, but after a week of getting "you look great", "damn, gorgeous", or "You're so fine, I'd pay money to slow dance with your ugly sister" (or whatever these people say) you'd start to look at them funny.

Fact

Rant: Infatuation

*** This following was tweeted at 1:30am outside of a strip club ***

Physical infatuation is only as deep as the pretty brown skin that creates it
Teasing and tempting me to touch & taste the tips of the tempest temptress until she trembles
When I'm in the moment, it feels like forever. I have no past, no future...she's my present and I'm trying to maximize my time in it

Rant: The Honesty in Infamy

***Disclaimer***

This rant was written at 12:30pm in a hotel room. As always, take it for what it's worth

  In college, I was known but I never considered myself to be popular. I feel like this is still the case today, and I'm happy about that.

  I remember saying to my friends at the beginning of our sophomore year that I didn't want to make any new friends this year. That may sound weird, but I had a reason for that.  Freshman year was all about "New" (Aside from my friends from high school, shout out to Stan & Maurice). New place, new classes, new routine, new people, new friends, & new enemies (Naturally, I found my fair share of those).  It was like a challenge to see how broad and large you could grow your network. It didn't really matter how many of these connections were meaningful, it was just a part of learning the lay of the land.  I got tired of that process. 

Rant: Natural Hair & The Token Black Actor

As an African-Canadian/American, I feel like it's patronizing whenever I see a black person in an ad with a natural hairstyle

What do you mean "Natural Hair"?
  Natural hair is gaining popularity amongst black women and lazy black men.  Looking to return to their more Afro-centric roots (No pun intended...no matter how nappy they are) or just to keep healthier hair by not using chemicals to straighten it, more and more women are jumping on the natural band-wagon...and I'm fine with that.  Black men usually don't have processed hair anymore (Think Jheri-curls, s-curls, & Al Sharpton), outside of Luster's Pink Lotion & Murray's hair grease (Which could probably stop a bullet if shot into the can).  Growing out one's hair has become popular for many through their teenage and twenty-something years.  I have no issue with having healthier hair and/or wanting to be more true to your ethnic roots with your hairstyle choice...But with that said, a messy natural hairstyle looks sloppy & dirty to me (Exhibit A).

 I'm very happy this is in the past

Extra Thought: Petty Girl Rock & Petty Boy Swag

  @jUst_donNi called @MrrobErts3 petty this past weekend as a joke. For some reason, that stood out to me. Has being petty become the norm?

Petty: 
b) Having little or no importance or significance. 
c) Marked by or reflective of narrow interests and sympathies, small minded
Originating from Middle English 'pety', small, minor, alteration of 'petit' 
                                                                                                 - Websters Dictionary

Wise Words From a Decent Addict

Beware of Expectations

Beware of expectations! 

  Your expectations can skew reality.  They can drive you to feel entitled if they aren't realistic.  If you expect to be insulted, you will be defensive and consider harmless statements to be slander.  Expectations are necessary tools to attaining your goals. Setting expectations, seeing the results, and reconciling the difference is key. With understanding, you can learn from your inaccurate expectations.  With wisdom, you can set accurate expectations.  With humility, you will set realistic expectations for yourself. With self esteem, you won't settle for less then your expectations.

Beware of expectations!

Rant: Intricate Evolution & Necessary Understanding

   The exercise of understanding somebody is never ending...unless, of course, the need to understand them goes away.  People evolve day to day...some leaps are larger than others, but what motivates me today can bore me tomorrow.  We consider a lot of character traits to be constant without the evidence to support the assumed consistency. Even after a large sampling, something can happen that will cause a person to alter what others might consider to be a pillar of their personality.  Without proper communication and attention, you can easily find yourself trying to talk to an outdated version of a person you thought you knew.

   Personally, I ask a lot of questions, that's my way of understanding motivations, and ultimately, people.  Often my questions double as insults or are said in jest but, most of the time, they are sincere and not meant to demean. This dichotomy can be confusing and only through understanding who I am will people be able to accept it.  However, if you don't like your decisions/actions being questioned, you're telling me that you don't want me to understand you, thus stunting whatever progress that was being made.  

Drunken Rant: 12/16/10

  Written between the hours of 2:45am & 3:10am in a hotel room.

                                                "Relax & take notes!"
  That line has nothing to do with what I want to say...FYI.  I thought to myself, I haven't posted in a minute....I haven't ranted drunkenly in a minute...I haven't been in a fight in a minute...Figured I'd knock 2 of those 3 out.  By the way, I will be cursing...Enjoy

**Love is your parents fucking.  So it's only natural to feel uncomfortable when you think about it**
  That line has little to do with what I want to say...but I like how it sounds.  Love is something that everybody wants, looks for, lies about having, and then goes crazy because of. Maybe we shouldn't worry so much about claiming/identifying/forcing it, and just let that messy mother fucker come on it's own.  Speaking of cumming...love is a lot like it...Sometimes you want to make it happen so badly, that you end up ruining a decent scenario. If you just relax, go with the flow, and pay attention to the situation...it will come naturally (Words of a single person...take with salt, tequila, & lime).

Drunken Rant: 10/16/2010

***The following rant was composed roughly between the hours of 3am & 4am.  Not sure what sparked this, but I made some points worth salvaging from the bowels of Twitter.  If it seems fragmented, it's because they were in tweet form.  As always, take what I saw with a grain of salt, followed by a shot of tequila...a lime chaser is suggested, but not required.***

I ate this McGangBang before I started drinking...Obviously, I was re-evaluating my life afterward

   "Listen...Life is full of double standards, oxymorons, and ingenious idiots...u just have to find your grove and stop worrying about the rest.  Actions speak louder than words. But when you're my close friend & I don't hit you up...it just be's like that. I'm still down for you.   Sometimes you can get by off of a feeling or an intent. But meaning to do something & doing something are 2 completely different things.